And So This Is Christmas

Kage Baker burned with a high, exhausted exhilaration by this time of the holiday cycle. The house pulsed with coloured lights and candles; we had all the goods for the Christmas feast, the tree grew more magnificent by the hour as the winter light faded to darkness, and all the presents were purchased. The few hysterical last minute trips out for forgotten gifts or condiments don’t really count …

That last Christmas Eve, we were totally unaware that Kage was dying. No, really – we knew she had been ill, and was still very sick; but we thought it was all post-surgical stuff, you know? We were disabused of that happy illusion just before midnight on Christmas Eve: I developed an historical case of gastroenteritis, Kage began having horrendous head pain, and eventually we both collapsed in the bathroom, trying to hold one another up and eventually sliding down the wall. We lay there giggling and moaning, and I finally managed to crawl into the living room and phone 911.

They took us both away to the hospital. I got inordinate amounts of IV fluids; Kage was rushed into a CAT scan and thus appraised of the tumour in her brain. “And mine of all brains!” she lamented as we lay on our gurnies waiting to see what happened next. “Happy fucking Christmas to us!”

Yep. Happy fucking Christmas. I got home in two days, to a house where all the decorations looked like weird props for a surrealistic play; Kage arrived a few days later. Kimberly came and rescued me from our disordered home by cleaning and grocery shopping. When Kage got home and was installed in her bedroom by large, attentive fireman (Pismo being the kind of small town where the Emergency crews were all firefighters) we thought we had six months to prepare for her death.

What she got was about a week. We had time to make announcements, and set up a visiting roster; I had a few epic fights with doctors who were loathe to prescribe opiates to someone who had at least half a year to live – proving to me, at least, that they had no more idea of what was going on than I did. Anyway, I was able at least to make sure that Kage was pain-free for her last days … by the time our first visitors arrived, Kage was feeling amazingly good, and was able to receive her guests with aplomb and enjoyment.

It was a happy day. Her sister Anne was there, with Kage’s nieces Kate and Anne. (No apple was permitted to ever fall far from the Baker tree.) Kage’s beloved son-surrogate, Wayne, make an utterly unexpected arrival, and stayed with Kage all day. Towards sunset, she fell asleep – and simply never woke up.

It was the worst Christmas of my life. I doubt that this is a surprise to anyone, Dear Readers. So why do I go over it again today? Nothing horrible is happening – but I have been sick. My whole household has been felled, stomped and otherwise assaulted by influenza; we are better now but not well. And so our staggering, hacking forays to get the house ready for Christmas Day have brought the past very much to my mind.

This is also why I have not written, Dear Readers – the initial attack of the influenza left me gasping and griping under my blankets, unable to do much about anything. Except breathe. Sorry, all, but my success in keeping that, at least, continuing is the best thing to have had occurred recently. Some of you have undoubtedly been going through the same thing. My condolences to you all.

But! It really is Christmas Eve, and even though our plague house has been low on seasonal victories – no one is dressed up, presents are sparse (I have personally lost about 4 gifts in the rumpled morass of my room), STILL: we have the feast ready to go. The tree and the lights are a coruscating glory. The house is warm, and my family is together, even if we do sound like strangling ducks.

Happy Christmas to all of you, my dear friends, and to all your households. Hold your households close in the light, and wait for the Sun to rise.

Because, you know – it will.

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One Year In

So, a year has passed without Kathleen. For the first time in my life, I am older than she, and everything feels off kilter. I’m having a more difficult time adjusting to this than anticipated, which is why you haven’t heard from me. I hope all the rest of you are doing well.

This was much easier when we lost Kage, because I had Kate with me. It let me concentrate on the good, bright memories of Kage – the stories, starting in high school, then on the trips to Faires, and at night when we all came together. I am the only one left who has knowledge of that full catalogue of characters and worlds. It’s more than slightly overwhelming. I’ve been crying and eating Easter candy all day.We must all adapt in our lives, but it’s not always a lot of fun. Onward!Whist we wait for good news from Vaughn at the amazing Virginia Kidd agency, I would suggest reading, or re-reading, some of Kage’s work. Please consider The Hotel Under the Sand. It’s a wonderful children’s book about terrifying loss, ongoing courage and hope, and ultimate success. If you (or your library) don’t have a copy, it’s available from Amazon. All comments will be happily received by all!

I must return now to Kathleen’s Zombie story: our heroes are about to make their escape from Los Angeles. Wish us all luck.

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Moving On

Dear Family, Friends, and Followers,

Joyous 12th Night! Sorry it’s been over eight months since Kathleen left us. I’m having a more difficult time adjusting to the new reality than I had anticipated. Hopefully all of you are doing well.

Encouraging news from Kage and Kathleen’s agency. Beginning right around now, they are in the process of acquiring all of the rights to Kage’s backlist at Tor. They plan on placing that with a new publisher for ebook and print rights – they have at least two major ebook publishers they work with regularly. That would include the publishing, new covers ( nothing could beat the original cover to Sky Coyote!), and publicity, which Tor didn’t seem to consider very important. The agency also plans to place the audiobook rights. Huzzah!

So, whilst we wait for good news, I would suggest reading, or re-reading some of Kage’s work. Consider The Hotel Under the Sand. It is a charming YA about terrifying loss, ongoing courage and hope, and ultimate success. If you ( or your library) don’t have a copy, it’s available from Amazon. All comments will be cheerfully received.

I must return now to Kate’s Zombie story. Wish me luck!

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testing, testing

… click…

Wow, it’s dusty in here. Well, four months adds up. Need to change a few light bulbs, too. Okay, deep breath, pull up a comfy chair, and give it a go.

I’m sitting on the couch with Kathleen’s laptop balanced on a lap desk, wondering what the hell I’m doing. She was so determined when she started this blog; of course that may have just been the attitude she was projecting, and she had no idea, either. Let’s go with that, shall we?

I’m Kimberly Bartholomew, Kathleen’s younger sister. I can’t let her work just fade away, as she couldn’t let Kage’s work wither away. What the two of them produced deserves to be remembered, and remain available to folks who may not be fully acquainted with it. I’ll be the one trying to carry on the tales about them. Sadly. it won’t be as witty, but something is better than nothing.

I’m delighted to say that Kathleen and Kage’s literary agent, the Virginia Kidd Agency (Praise them with great praise!) is actively pursuing a new publisher for their works. I will let people know as things progress. I have decided to try and complete Kate’s zombie story. We had talked about it extensively before she died, and she left notes, so I feel slightly comfortable forging (or blundering!) ahead. I’m sure I’ll get a lot of feedback from the unfortunates I get to read it for me.

This won’t be daily. I’ll post as things occur. I don’t know as many of the backstories – you had to be in the car on the long rides to there and back again to know all of that, and the only two witnesses are now gone. I’ll share what I know, and invite everyone to chime in with anything they know. We’re all in this together now, boys and girls. Good luck to us all!

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January 5th

Kage Baker always chipped away at January bit by bit, little glistening petals of pastel-coloured chill. She made up her January out of these pale ices, still reflecting the glories of Christmas and predicting the beauties of spring.

If you will be so kind as to imagine me seated in my armchair, waving my hands languorously in the light from my lamp, casting glints from my rings (onyx and amber, right now), you will a fair picture of me at the peak of my activity tonight. Which is to say. I am just not capable of much tonight.

Sorry, Dear Readers. I am not rising to the challenges of the New Year tonight. However, I want you to know I’m not dead. Which I’m not.

More later!

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New Year’s Eve 2023

Kage Baker truly enjoyed New Year’s, both Eve and Day. It was the definitive pinnacle to the building arc of holidays that began, for Kage, with Halloween.

Halloween began at sunset, and ramped through the hours of darkness until midnight – or until childish energy gave out in candy comas. New Year’s, on another hand, arrives at midnight with peals of trumpets and fireworks, and rumbles triumphantly into dawn. It’s a new year, and the days will be growing lighter every day for months.

And that is what Kage liked to celebrate.

She had her rituals for the New Year; I didn’t know the source or provenance for any of them, really. All I brought from my childhood was an earnest desire to watch the ball drop in Times Square and drink a swig or two of champagne (only a little; I don’t like champagne). Kage, though, loved champagne, and finished off the bottle happily.

But Kage always fixed, very deftly, a special meal of first-class steak, baked potato and creamed spinach. What was the ritualistic point of this excellent repast? I’ve no idea, except maybe it was because that was the only time Kage ever cooked it. With Kage, once was fun, twice was coincidence, and after the third time an act occurred – it was a ritual.

Then we’d watch the Twilight Zone marathon until midnight. Which is what I am doing right now. The especial fun of watching Twilight Zone is finding the young performers who are now revered old actors. Right now, George Takei, at the apparent age of about 14, is relivng Pearl Harbor in some old American vet’s attic. It’s not looking good for the vet …

Right now, the annual barrage of explosives is getting louder – all my neighbors who quietly walk their tiny dogs and polish their BMWs and Mercedeses are bringing out the leftovers from 4th of July and Memorial Day and lighting them up. The most of them will be lit off just after midnight, when it will briefly resemble the Battle of Los Angele around here. That was Kage’s actual favourite part – all the explosions going off everywhere.

Harry the parrot has gone to bed, and is sleeping sound. Fireworks and a few mild urban explosions don’t bother parrots particularly. Now, though, I also live with a dog and 2 cats, who must be soothed after each explosion, the poor babies. I would personally enjoy this much more if the explosions didn’t upset the beasties so.

But here we are. We can soothe the kitties with catnip, and snuggle the Corgi, and watch aliens on the Twilight Zone, and march on to the New Year. I hope none of you have duties more onerous than petting nervous cats, and that everyone has a very Happy New Year!

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Christmas Doesn’t End On Christmas Day

Kage Baker was raised as a Roman Catholic (as was I), in the modern, 20th century tradition. In our cases, that meant 12 years of parochial school, church every Sunday, and a paucity of saints’ days in the liturgical calendar.

We liked the saint’s days we did know about, because they usually meant we got the day off from school. For example, we got the day after Halloween off – All Saints Day, you know. It meant an extra day to spend working your leisurely way through the candy loot from the night before, usually with a book to hand. Personally, I used to go sit outside the gates of the local public school, eating chocolate and taunting the kids who didn’t get All Saints Day off. I usually had to hastily exeunt, pursued by bears (as the Bard says.).

Anyway, as Catholic school kids, we were at least subliminally aware of saints’ days all the time. I doubt that that our attitudes were what the nuns hoped we were developing … but Kage was much more interested than I was, and scholarly interest can pass easily for piety.

One of the things she discovered was that Christmas and Epiphany (which commemorates Jesus’ baptism) actually constitute a special season of their own – Epiphanytide. Epiphany falls on the 6th of January, and each of the days between that and December 25th is dedicated to a particular saint. Today, for instance, honors St. Anthony the Hermit.

Mind you, St. Anthony the Hermit is only the principal saint for December 28th. The Roman Catholic church usually has 2 or 3 saints per day, simply because there are so many saints in the liturgical calendar. Kage liked him better than the others who shared his day, because of the reason he is called the hermit – he tried to be a hermit continuously but was just as continuously pursued by his devotees and disciples. So, he kept fleeing, apparently just to find a place to be alone. At which endeavor the poor fellow failed, as he needs must share his saint’s day with 8 other saints. At least.

Kage found that hilarious.

But my point here is that Christmas doesn’t end on Christmas Day – and I don’t mean that in some dewy-eyed Hallmark special meaning about clinging to the holiday throughout the year. I’m not even a Christian; neither was Kage. I mean that, literally, Christmas doesn’t end. It flows along into other holidays, one of whose endpoints is always that bright, beautiful holiday at the heart of winter.

Pick any holiday in the wide rolling year, and it’s the same. It pours along through all the holidays that come after it, and by the time you reach the New Year, you are bedizened with enough feathers of light and colour to impersonate a peacock. An iridescent, glowing peacock. From space. Or Faerieland, or wherever your heart calls home.

It all just flows along.

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Christmas 2023

Kage Baker loved Christmas Day, This was hardly unusual, or even noteworthy; most Christians and most dwellers in the Western world do love and enjoy the central holiday of so many, many cultures.

This is not to ignore all the myriad cultures that are not Christian and/or Western. Everyone on earth celebrates a midwinter festival of some sort, and the birth of a god or prophet figures in lots of them. Christianity, an inveterate pickpocket of other religion’s good bits, got a lot of Christmas and other rituals that way.

Muslims celebrate Eid al-Fitr in December, Jews have Hannukah. The Incas (yes, they still exist) have the Inti Raymi on the winter Solstice. The list goes on and on.

Anyway, Kage loved Christmas Day. So do I, especially now that I happily spend it with my family. Michael, who is at least half nocturnal, slept in; while Kimberly and I, relentlessly programmed by 60-odd years of rousting our poor parents out of bed in the darkling ere dawn, have been awake since 6:30 or so.

The dog licking my feet also helped. Our Corgi, Syndodd, has a passion for feet, and he burrows under blankets with insane determination. Happy Christmas! Your cold, wet toes mean it’s Christmas Day!

It was a lovely, lazy day of people playing with their new toys. I also got a wonderful set of lounging pajamas, in which I am even now lounging comfortably. I hope you are, too, Dear Readers. Well, not in my pajamas, obviously, but in whatever post-holiday garments make you most comfortable. If you’re in velvet vestments and swigging champagne, I envy you the champagne – but I am happy here in my jammies, with my family, in the light of our Christmas tree.

Happy Christmas, Dear Readers! And a very good night unto to you all.

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Christmas Eve 2023

Kage Baker said the first Christmas Eve she remembered was 1955. For those of you, Dear Readers, who are keeping score – yes, that means she was 3 and 1/2 years old. Her memory went back an amazingly long way; in Technicolor and Surround Sound, for all I know. She remembered everything she saw on television in colour, though her family didn’t get a colour telly for another couple of decades.

The first Christmas Eve I remember was 1957, I believe; I was born in in July, 1953, so that made me 4 and a half. About all I remember about 1957 in general was that Zorro was on Disney, and a wildcat spent an afternoon in the tree outside our house (Mamma wouldn’t let us out of the house, so we watched it through the living room window). My memories were not in colour, except the RL ones, because we had a black and white television.

All the Christmas Eves were Merry, we left the tree lights on all night, and the cookies and carrots we left out for Santa and his reindeer were found satisfactorily gnawed in the morning. THAT, both Kage and I remembered,

I hope you did, too. And I hope this Christmas Eve is splendid and cozy, and the morning is bright and full of the sound of bells and crinkling paper.

Happy Christmas to you all!

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Three Is a Semi-Sacred Number

Kage Baker grew up in the 60’s and 70’s. And she read voraciously. In a stroke of remarkable good luck, so did her mother, who developed a fondness for fantasy novels when I loaned her my copies of Gormanghast. The good luck paid off with Mrs. Baker’s generosity – she not only borrowed all our books, but she also constantly loaned her own purchases to us. And she could buy a lot more than we could! 

Mrs. Baker was a painter – portraits and landscapes – and she was good. However, the life of a painter is rarely rich or sumptuous, and she had 6 kids to raise. She usually worked at home, then took her finished work to art shows to sell. These art shows were often in malls, and the first thing she did was locate the bookstores and candy stores; we’d go to visit and be handed a bag full of new books and See’s chocolates. Good times!

Mr. Baker was a mailman, but a mailman doesn’t make a royal amount of money, either. And then he had a heart attack when Kage was small, and thereafter he was more or less a house husband; he took small jobs when he could, usually as a delivery man for a florist, but again – not a high-paying job, except in free plants. They had the best garden in the neighborhood, with all manner of exotic flowering plants; and Mrs. Baker’s studio had orchids flowering all over.

So, this was a sort of adolescent idyll, filled with See’s chocolates and free books. Kage wasn’t quite living in her parents’ house, but it was hard to move out once Mrs. Baker had taken you in. That was how I became her beneficiary, too: I was Kage’s pal and occasional chauffeuse, and that was enough for her to claim me as one of her own.

With a wider array of fantasy and science fiction to explore, Kage’s tastes began to settle into definite shape. And one of the first things she decided was that she loathed, abhorred, despised and detested (to quote Judy Garland*), trilogies. This was a major heresy in the 1960s and 70s, because following J.R.R. Tolkien’s Lord of The Rings trilogy, everyone was reading and writing trilogies. It was de rigueur, practically an unwritten rule. Lots of readers loved this, though the wait between volumes could be annoying; on the other hand, some writers decided to write absolutely enormous novels and I, for one, loved those outsized, horse-choking books. They were a lovely abundance.

When Kage sold her first novel, she was already well into Number 2; when she sold that, it was the same with Number 3. Sometimes she would have 2 or 3 finished manuscripts on her desk – but when her agent or publisher suggested marketing some as a trilogy – she refused, with varying amounts of courtesy – which meant she handed it off to me, and I used my oily, obsequious charms to dissuade them of the idea of a trilogy. I managed to do it without explaining that Kage had hated ’em from her teenage years because her dear mother bought too many.

Anyway, Kage insisted on having all her Company books published separately. I’m afraid she rather gloated over the few reader complaints she got. “What do they want me to do?” she would ask. “Write less? I can do that …” And she would giggle, I’m afraid. Not that she ever would have written less – I don’t think she was capable of it – but she could have let that stack of finished manuscripts continue to sit on her desk, collecting occasional Coke stains …

Luckily, it never came to that. I’ve lost track of all the styles in which her books have been published since she died: but there is probably a trilogy presentation in there somewhere. Heck, sometimes I can’t even read the covers, she’s been published in so many languages. But I have always done my best, so if an angry ghost of Kage Baker is haunting some publishing clerk … they have my sympathies, but they were warned.

On my part, I sleep unafraid. Of Kage and furiously brandished trilogies, anyway.

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Two In A Row

Kage Baker, if she was aware of my writing efforts last night, must have been wringing her hands and cursing in frustration, Technology was never something she enjoyed dealing with, even when it was working correctly. Last night, it was not working at all for me – at least not in the way where one even has the time to wring one’s hands or set one’s hair on fire. And while Kimberly has been very patient with the noise I make – writing not being a silent process with me – frenzied profanity interferes with the family watching television.

But, man, it was a right mess last night. Microsoft Office, a usually reliable place to create an ordinary document, simple did not respond. You can’t mess with a site you can’t open; that seems to have been the philosophy behind the non-operation. The one funny moment in the general morass was an apologetic page from WordPress, explaining that none of their links were working, due to an “unspecified personnel problem”.

I figure somebody got fired just before their Christmas break and left their employer an epic present. I had a good laugh, though. And it was sort of satisfying to know someone was worse off last night than I was. Especially a huge corporate “monster” like WordPress. It seemed we were both having inexplicable problems. Heck, I hadn’t even fired anybody!

However, in the meantime, I have now accomplished 2 blogs in a row. Whoopee! A personal best, at least in this current cycle of writing. Kage always said that when you started writing a new project, all the lights went out and the gears cycled back to start in the machine that watches you write. Thus, you got new goals and victories every time.

I asked Kage once where this watching machine was located and what it looked like – not teasing; I was always fascinated about how she populated the world … she described a rather wonderful device, rich with coloured lights and bedight with polished brass, ticking and honking gently just behind her left shoulder.

And who was I to argue? It was only one of many machines with which Kage populated our life. Besides, since I began to write myself, I have noticed soft machine noises just behind me. I get glimpses of brass in the windows beside me; the room is occasionally perfused with gently chiding or congratulatory colours. Kage’s machine has somehow followed me and taken up residence in unguarded sections of my mind. Which, to be honest, is most of them …

I must also credit my sister Kimberly; every day, without fail, she has told me to write. She started me writing again. And Kage’s machine keeps me writing along.

But I really have accomplished something that amazes me. At this point in my recent life, managing two blogs in a row is astonishing. And tomorrow, I will try for three.

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