I Need To Start Again

Kage Baker didn’t have the easiest of lives. Let’s face it; few people do, and most of those are no one you’d want to know.

She persevered, though, and enjoyed the vast majority of her days. When it was obvious The End was in sight, Kage just shrugged and proceeded to work and party as hard as she could till the landlord called time. And she left things to me to finish.

I’ve managed some of them. I haven’t given up on the others, but it’s been a hard, hard year for me. I’m way behind on my duties. My life has moldered strangely and badly. Worst of all, it’s gone bad in ways I did not anticipate, and for which I had stored away no weaponry. In the Great Conflict of Life, Dear Readers, I have been losing.

I’ve not been posting this blog because … the world has just been too dismally depressing for me. I’ve been hiding. Sleeping. Trying to stay alive. My health has not been cooperative. My car has died. I’m broke. The Federal Gummint is reviewing whether or not I deserve to stay alive. We had a major spider hatch here in Los Angeles, and have been fighting them tooth, nail and palps. I’m depressed, my heart is limping, my diabetes has been out of control, I am covered with welts and bites. It’s been my feeling, Dear Readers, that no one would want to see my miserable summer recounted.

So I haven’t. But now – while things are only slightly  better – I am not feeling like a smashed egg anymore. I’ve no idea if anyone is still listening (and it’s my own fault if you are not) but I am trying to resume what passes for a normal life these days.

In other words, I’m back.

More to follow. My thanks to anyone still attending to my little soapbox. Let’s all hang up some pumpkin lights and see how things look with a little more illumination.

 

About Kate

I am Kage Baker's sister. Kage was/is a well-known science fiction writer, who died on January 31, 2010. She told me to keep her work going - I'm doing that. This blog will document the process.
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21 Responses to I Need To Start Again

  1. Sue says:

    We’re still here. Hope things improve. Hugs.

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  2. For you, always here. How can we help?

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  3. redmolly7 says:

    Sorry to hear that things have been so miserable for you. You’ve had a lot of company, sadly. Hope things will be on the upswing soonest.

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  4. Kelly says:

    Also here..sending hugs!

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  5. Marc Bailey says:

    Still interested and want more as you feel up to it, I’ll keep good thoughts.

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  6. Charles H Albrecht says:

    I’ve been worried about you
    May you know joy whatever happens
    Your friends are truly blessed by your friendship
    You have shown true love for Kage by keeping her memory alive
    May peace be upon you

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  7. Cora Hendershot says:

    Hang in there. Lots and lots of people (me among ’em) look forward to your posts. Do not dispair, please. Sometimes things are rough enough that all one has within is a roaring silence. Be patient with yourself, and we your loyal readers will still be here.

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  8. Mark says:

    Sorry to hear you have been enduring such travails…
    Hope things look up soon. If I can be any help, know that I would be honored.
    Hope to see you at the resumption of extreme Christmas, and if you need a lift up, I might be able to provide.

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  9. Kathy Allen says:

    Hoping for you to have a little candle of hope. Is there such a thing as an advocate or ombudsman for the Bureaucracy of Doom in health care?

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  10. buggybite says:

    We are still here, and have been a tad worried about you. The world is in such a mess just now. Damn. It’s hard not to be depressed and worried. This blog helps us all, and I’m glad you’re back. But don’t apologise for taking a break. It’s hard to write when you feel overwhelmed. Here’s hoping things begin to look better, now that this horrible summer is coming to a close.

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  11. We are not going anywhere. Glad to see you have stood up. Experience tells me that a frontal assault on your diabetes will brighten the rest some and those you can’t directly effect you can tell them to fuck off. (In the immortal words of Billy Connely)

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  12. lughaid says:

    We’ll be here when you feel like writing. Good to hear from you.

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  13. mizkizzle says:

    I’m glad you’re back. Your radio silence was worrysome.
    My! Aren’t these exciting times! With any luck the space aliens will arrive soon to enslave humanity and we can quit this silly internecine bickering and join together in the fight to defeat a common enemy.
    In the meantime there’s always dark chocolate.

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  14. Brad Campbell says:

    Missed you. I had my gnarled old arthritic fingers crossed, hoping that you were knee-deep in a new Company Novel.

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  15. Jane Sandmeier says:

    I concur with all of the above – been concerned about you knowing that silence couldn’t mean anything good. My summer sucked too, so I can relate! So pleased to hear your wise words again!

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  16. CYnthia Olsen says:

    Been checking Doctor Zeus everyday, hoping for a new piece. So sorry to hear about your miserable summer! So glad to have you
    back.

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  17. Lynn says:

    Welcome back. You have been missed and we’ve worried about you. I, along with everyone else, am thankful you’re feeling better enough to reconnect with us. United we stand; alone we’re depressed.

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  18. Deborah says:

    We’re here. Listening. Take care.

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  19. debraji says:

    Still listening, Kathleen, and hoping that better times are ahead.

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  20. Beth says:

    I am so glad to hear from you; I’d been a bit worried, eagerly checking my blog feed daily to see if you’ve emerged. Such relief to see a post again! Here’s hoping that the fall brings better times for you. Thanks for coming back.

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  21. greenmtngrrl says:

    So glad to hear from you again, Kathleen! Here’s hoping the fall brings better times.

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